I'm feeling really sick. Like, fever chills vomit dizzy sick. The kind of sick that you shouldn't be alone, isolated from the world, but have no choice so you're stuck.

Thanksgiving was pretty okay. For the most part I had a good time, but my brother was more than annoying. I love my family though. Mmmhmmmm. and food. I like food a lot.

Russell and I did Black Friday. He didn't want to, but.... he went. andddd we didn't go as early as I wanted because I fell asleep and didn't wake up to the alarm :( but I still got a ton of stuff! And good stuff at that! (tons of movies, Beatles Rockband!, a purse, Mini Ninjas, etc etc). It was like Christmas.

I'm not ready to school tomorrow. I'm really really not. I keep trying to do work but I just can't stay focused... especially after all the days off, you know? But three more days. Three more days and I'm done with class! Then I just have to endure my eval... which isn't going to be fun. Oh well. Three more days. Yeah!

I had about 10 dreams last night/this morning. I usually only have two or so, but I was full of dreams last night. Strange.

Uh... I'm being boring. Byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I wish I could. I've tried probably three or so times, but I just can't do it. I keep hearing strange noises that cause me to imagine things and then I get really nervous and paranoid. I know it's stupid and I should just seriously grow up, but I can't.......

It really scares me. Oh well.

I have five more days of class. Five! I am so excited you have no idea. And I only have class Monday and Tuesday of this week, which makes me even more excited. I do have four more tests though, which sort of sucks. Oh well. After I get out of this class it'll be the good life. Theories or Personalities and Global Health here I come! Hopefully I can find another job on top of the one I have now. Anyone know any place that's hiring? Hmmm? Anyone want to be my coworker?!? But seriously, let me know.

Hmmm.... what else. I got new tires. They look nice. I got an oil change too. I... am excited it's not raining right now, but I bet it will in a few hours. I don't mind the rain and all, but seriously. It's been raining for probably the last three weeks or something. Just give us a small break! Please! I hate sitting in class all day with wet clothes. Ugh.

I'm excited for Thanksgiving.

I don't know how to feel about today. There were the goods. and there were the bads.
My day:

- I woke up and felt horrible. I haven't been able to sleep. It also doesn't help that I woke up to pounding on the door and people screaming. What, you may ask, could possibly be happening? Well, a group of my kids (the kids I'm an RA for... not my actual kids) were partying last night, got hella drunk, and a guy punched the window. Why? No one knows. But he had to go to the ER. Ridiculous.
- I went to school and fell asleep during lecture. I've been so exhausted lately. :(
- I had a really delicious mocha and bagel!
- I saw my face on a few posters around the school. I'm famous and I didn't even know it!
- Work wasn't so bad. People were joking around, I got stuff done, and I got some advice.
- I got home and tried to take a nap, but I just couldn't seem to do it, so I just sat on the couch in silence. After I did it for like, an hour, I thought how strange it was to be doing that so I turned the TV on.
- A friend from my class last year texted me.
- I watched an SNL episode with my husband Gerard Butler.
- I found out that I'm a big whiny baby.
- I keep getting these bouts of feeling like Iim about to vomit. Pregnant? Kidding. I have my big bottle of ginger ale to help me out though. I love ginger ale.

I love shopping for gifts for people... I wish that giving gifts was free though. Wouldn't that just make like so much easier?

I took my O. Chem test today. It sucked. Hard core. At least I only have five more tests and then I'm done done done! Done! Until next quarter. But still! Done! and done with my class.

last night I had a dream that I worked at Walmart.

A calling? Maybe.
My dream job? Quite possibly.

I may have found what I need to do with my life. I can rest easy.

Deedee's birthday party was fun. Definitely some memorable moments....

I carved a pumpkin! It looks okay. ... I had some trouble with it, unfortunately. Things happen, I guess. I wish it was already the beginning of December... because then I would be done with this quarter. :) I think I might change my life plan. Scary, right? I'm not 100% sure, but it's definitely in the front of my mind. Drastic changes can happen. Hopefully it'll benefit me in the long run. We'll see I guessssssss.

I'm going to Ellensburg for the first time this school year! I'm pretty excited to meet Russell's new roommates and see his dorm room. Yay! It should be fun. We're going out for dinner and a movie which is always nice too.

I can't wait to graduate. I'm debating graduating early or not. What do you think? Any ideas? Suggestions? Stories of people who did and then failed at life? Stories of people who didn't and then failed at life? Any input at all?

kay. Bye.

the longest day of my life.

(and it's not over)

Today has been so long. I didn't fall asleep until 4:30 last night (or... this morning). It was so terrible. Seriously. So, I woke up and went to class. lecture wasn't so bad, but workshop sucked. I was just so out of it and couldn't focus. Luckily I got it mostly done. I didn't have to go to work today because my boss said it would be safer if I stayed away considering I'm sick. Wouldn't it be kind of cool if I got the swine flu? I mean, seriously? You could say you knew a girl who got it. It's be pretty cool. I wonder if I'd be excused from school for a little. Mmmmm. The thought of that is so tempting.

Then, I went home and cleaned and rearranged my bedroom. I really like it. I think I'm going to keep it this way for awhile. It feels bigger and more open. Wide opeennnnn sppppppaces.

Then, I had some people over for a study group. Ugh. It's like chemistry never ends, you know? I hate it. THEN, I had to work. Which mainly consisted of sitting around, but I did do some running around. It's so cold!

I'm finally off of work and am so happy. I just want to unwind a bit, you know? I can't wait for this week to be over, it could not move any slower.

I'm hella sick. Like, swine flu crap. Jay kay, but seriously, I'm really sick.

I had lab allllll day today. It was exhausting and then at the end we ended up realizing it was wrong, but things happen, you know? Oh well. It was such a long day though.

The only good thing was my burrito and talking to Russell.

Last night I had a dream that Jacob (Jones) was tossing a large pair of scissors in the air. We were in the woods and there were a ton of people around. He kept throwing them closer and closer to the innocent people. and I kept telling him he shouldn't do that. Then, he threw them at the people and blood started to pour out. I started to clean the forest ground and the doctor looked at the people that got hurt. Jacob just stood there staring. Then the doctor said it was just a surface wound and then I woke up. It was reallllly freaking weird.

P.S. Jacob, I don't think you're a mean person, haha. Oh, and Hobbs is in my class/chemistry workshop.

I hate having a "hibernate" and "shut down" option.


p.s. I have the worst kink in my neck.

p.p.s. Can I really do this for another 248 days?

p.p.p.s. Does anyone else need to take the GRE? Or the MCAT? Want to study and take one or both together?!?!?!!

Oh man. School has begun and let me tell you, it has begun. Like, no joke. It's so intense. I had a test the first day of class just to see if I was allowed to take the class :/ I passed it though, so that was good. We also had Chemistry lecture the first day.

Lab was yesterday. We did a ton of stuff in it. I like my lab partner though, so that's good. They are going to be hard though. Incredibly time consuming as well. Thennnnnnn today was Microbiology lecture and workshop. Oh my god. The whole class spend an hour working on just one problem. One problem! It was insane. Anyway, this class is going to whip my ass. It has the reputation of being the hardest class at Evergreen (science oriented anyway).

What else? I've been working for a week straight now. "but tessa, all you do is just wait on people and sit there" but when you wake up so dang early I want to go to bed early sometimes! You know! Come on! Know what I'm saying?

Hmmmm... I got an xbox 360. It's pretty amazing. I like it a lot. (So does Russell). I think that's about it. I think.

Who cares right? I could just update again.

p.s. I made sushi yesterday. yum yum.

Russell left yesterday (well, technically this morning but he slept at his house yesterday so that was the last time I saw him). It sucks. A lot.

I've basically been trying to sleep all day but now I have to wake up because there are kids arriving today and I have to make their beds. Lame.

I'm going to Oregon tomorrow. Just for a few days, nothing big. I'm excited though. I need a little break from Olympia and such.

School starts in almost exactly a week. I am not excited. It's going to be a really hard year and I NEED to get full credit on all three quarters or there is going to be a major problem. I already have a test on the first day, homework (a ton of it, might I add), and points that we should all know solidly on the first day of class. Sheesh. Senior year is NOT going to be a doozy.

I miss Russell. Charlie is really upset. He kept getting in trouble last night so I put him in his bed room because I just couldn't handle it anymore. Now he's ripping up anything he can possibly get his teeth on. His medicine is done though! Yay!

I should probably get in the shower. Bye.

This week has been so terrible. Seriously, it's just one thing after another. I know the weekend will be the final crap straw, but leading up to it is just not good. I did have a pretty good iced mocha today though. And free lunch on Monday. Those were good things. Charlie is feeling much better after his balls removal as well. Always a plus. Too bad he can't learn to take his medication better. Russell struggles with him every day.

I've been feeling sick lately. I don't know if it's how I'm eating or my sleep schedule or the weather. I really am not sure, but I don't like it. Ew.

I might go to the zoo with my mom and sister this weekend. Ride the camels!!!!!!! Holy crap, I hope it works out, because I have been wanting to do that for awhile now.

I felt like I had so much more to write, but now nothing. Not that anything I write is really that cool anyway... it's really not. Oh well. I'm going to keep doing it so I can look back and laugh one day.

p.s. When do you know you're enough. When the heck do you know? You know? Naw mean?

I can't sleep. I haven't been feeling lately. It's really lame. I don't like it, one bit. I shoullllld probably go to the doctor, but I don't want to... especially since I think I'm due for a pap smear :/ I'm sure you all don't care, but it's my journal and I do what I want! But seriously, I hate going to the doctors. I would rather go to the dentist ten times than go to the doctors once. I would take getting five cavities filled over the doctors. :(

Charlie is doing so good! He's eating and drinking and hopping around. He just really hates when he has to have his medicine. It's always a big ordeal and he gets so upset. It makes me feel really bad. Oh well. He'll thank me later.

I saw 9 today (or I guess yesterday). It was good! At least I thought so.

I start school so soon. Bummmmmer. Bum-mer.

Hmm... yeahhhhhh.

EDIT:

http://seattle.craigslist.org/oly/clo/1361920920.html

Seriously? Serioussssly? Who would make their bridesmaids wear that?!?!?!

I totally forgot to write about something. Charlie! He got his balls clipped last night. 09-09-09 was not a lucky day for him :( He's recovering right now. He is not happy and I had having to give him medicine because he definitely does not like it. Though, he probably doesn't like not having balls more.

It's better for him in the long run, though, so I hope he understands that. Helps with disease! and extends life! and makes him calmer! and now he can't have little babies running around in the already over populated bunny world!

Well now. Has it really been like a month and some? Sheesh. I'm slacking hard core. Things that have happened...

I saw Halloween II. I got a letter saying the license would be suspended. I have been going to Russell's house a lot to help him dog sit. I finished my Anatomy and Physiology class (thank god, I hated it so much). I'm going to Oregon for a long weekend in a few weeks. I start school on the 28th (crap). I got my computer fixed. Work has been incredibly lame. Russell and I spring cleaned. I went and watched Inglorious Bastards. I bought a lot of dresses (yay, I have basically only been wearing dresses for the last three months). I have no money. I wrote Michael twice and he has ignored me twice (What the heck? Daniel, any ideas???) Deedee and I hugh out.

That's about all my life... lame.

I feel like I have a lot to update about, but I'm not tooooo sure, so we'll see.

Russell and I went to the movies. Saw The Ugly Truth. It was pretty good. A lot of laughing involved. I finished my photography class. My professor said really good things about me so that makes me feel better. Actually, it made me feel really good. That was a nice confidence booster.

Russell and I watched someone try and break in to an apartment underneath us. Russell called the cops as I spied and notified our neighbors. There were a ton of sheriffs and they even brought a dog! haha. They didn't catch him though. And the officer that was there was John Price! Chris' dad! So weird, huh? So we caught up.

Hmm, Russell and I got locked out of our apartment too. The door got jammed or something weird like that, so we had to call maintenance and they drilled the dead-bolt out then Russell and to climb up a ladder and go through our window.

We took Charlie to the park. He looooooooved it. Well, at least I think so. He likes grass, but it may have been a bit too hot for him. Poor boy.

Elaine, Josh, Russell, and I went golfing. That was super fun. I won. Haha... I'm pretty awesome. But really, it was fun. I liked seeing Elaine and catching up with her life. and it's always nice to see Josh. Russell I see all the time, so it sucked. (just kidding)

Today I went to breakfast/lunch with Deedee and Rachel Wood! We went to Denny's. It was so strange, but really nice. I miss her, to be honest. I wish she would move back to Washington, haha. Oh well. It was definitely fun to see her and catch up. And to see Deedee. That was good too.

Hmm, I skipped class today. Instead Russell and I got really good burritos and baklava. mmmmm. Now we're sitting in the dark with the fan blowing right on us. It's romantic (not really).

My fourth was really good. Really really good. The beach was nice and being with Russell all day with no distractions was incredible.

Then in between that was school and work. School. Work. School. Work. Over and over... lame.

Today was good though. I went golfing with Kelsie, Marina, and Josh. We had good talks and played some good golf. Then I had delicious lunch with Josh.

You know how you strive for something in life? I have a ton of goals (Family, a good job, finishing school) but one for right now: I want to feel important. I want to be something that someone can look forward to. You know? Sounds dumb, I know. Maybe I'm asking too much? Or something unattainable. Who knows. I'm ridiculous sometimes.

I want to sleep. Stupid work.

Oh! If anyone wants their photo taken soon, let me know. I have to take photos and I like to take them of people... :)

I can't believe Michael Jackson is dead.


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